This is not something I usually comment about, but, tomorrow makes a whole year since my divorce was finalized...amazed at how quickly that went by! In the first few days after my ex-husband left, I was a basket case. I felt like I wasn't in my own body, just going through the motions of my daily routine. Shock is such an odd thing to live through. I look back now to March of 2013 and I actually can't clearly remember those days...even now. Maybe that's a mercy for me. They have been replaced with vague recollections of crying and pain. Like physical, real pain. My heart really DID feel like it was breaking. But, gradually, I came into myself again. I was able to make it through an hour without crying, then a few hours, then a day, then a week, you get my point. Ever so slowly, I rediscovered who I am. I have an inner strength that even I am surprised by, I have a faith that has been tested and I held on (for dear life at times), to come out of the other side more sure of my beliefs and more convinced that I am loved beyond measure by my creator.
I have also discovered what a pretty cool gal I am :) I've been able to keep a great sense of humor, a humble heart, and a fairly disciplined life. Overall, through a tumultuous few years, ending in what I still kinda think of as a failure, I can thank God for never leaving me in my darkest moments and for the love and support of my family and my church family too! I am indeed blessed and I can say without a doubt, it is well with my soul :)
